I don't know who are you and what are you anymore.
You're just no longer the person i knew in the past.
I know people do change, i changed and you do too.
But i never knew that yours would be a drastic one.
I really had enough. You're pissing me off.
I tried to tell you in another way so i won't be too direct and hurt your feelings like what i did to ______.
I really tried. I don't know if you got my message. Guess not.
I don't have anyone true in my live now. Atleast i feel i don't.
True friends don't keep things from each other.
You wanna hide, you do it so obviously and tells every single shitty person in the world but not me.
It Hurts to see you do this. You're not the one feeling this cut.
Friends are everything to me and yo should know that by now.
You've known me for years, not months.
You should know how i think too.
I see you as someone who i can share my thoughts as.
As for now, whenever i see you, flashbacks began to play in my head and thought of all the things you do.
You said alot of things about it and i'm sure of it. Don't need to deny.
I can say that i said hundreds, thousands or even millions of bad stuff about you but after i said all that,
i reflect back to myself, asking, "are you really the person i described?"
Every time i look into the mirror, i saw myself holding a knife with your blood stained.
I back-stabbed you. No, i feel like killing you because you pissed me.
I really felt like doing it. I won't think of the consequenses.
I want to share things with you but as soon as i heard about my own problems coming out of another party's mouth, it could only be you cause i told no one else but you.
Happily walking into a cave of death and me, i didn't even notice it. How naive i am.
Whenever i say something really bad, i was quite prepared for the worst that could come.
I may look happy at the outside and not bother and care about lots of things but did you ask me what i am really thinking of? I'm not who i used to be. Find it hard to trust anyone now. Used to think i could trust you but not anymore.
People are telling me things, i refused to believe everything.
I simply tell myself that you're not the type of person they say you are. But your actions just makes it harder for me to tell myself that.
i want to trust you, but i can't bring myself to do so.
I don't wanna hate you, but i don't know if i can succeed in doing that.
I want to treat like before where we used to share all the things, little little things that makes us happy, sad, angry, excited and lots more. I can no longer share all these with anyone else because of the experience you gave me. Not that it's only you but the rest of them too. Why am i always the only one who can tell all of you guys everything about me but in return, having you to deceive me about somethings.
I don't want this to happen. All these just makes me fall apart faster.
Nobody cares of what i'm feeling, what i'm thinking of and what i want right now.
Please stop all these nonsense and stop toying with me. I'm tired of all these things.
Anyway, for anything i did, i'm sorry, but i think we both should be.

I know it's hard but can't just things go back to the way it used to be? Or rather the way we used to be.