is it just me or are we drifting further away?
we do not share as many things as before, and most of all, not as close...
i am like always trying to fit in like what anne told me to do but ,
even if i as there, you wouldn't see me at all
i would be invisible to you
you keep things from me and do not tell me the truth
there is no trust behind this friendship at all
sad to say but the four of us were happier together,
nobody left out,
nobody quarreling at all
i know that i am stupid but i am a person who cannot survive without my friends with me
i am now a nobody to you
i called your name but you dont reply
others called out your name and the reply came out quickly
i am really afraid that we will not be friends anymore...
life without you all are just meaningless
when i am around, it seems that you dont notice at all
but when i am not around, it seems that you are happier.
is it our problem or is it just mine?
i cant figure it out
sorry to say but i felt happier without HER around but whenever SHE is around,
am i just a nobody in your eyes?
i mean SHE is also my friend but whenever SHE is around i am left out
i dont want to lose anybody
i am selfish i dont want to lose either of you guys
but with you guys treating me like this, i have got no choice but to feel that i am a back up friend
i dont want to but i just cannot control myself...
i am sorry for being selfish
and i seems to be apologizing to you guys more and on major things too
since ever SHE appeared in this friendship
i am not saying that i dislike HER
but
now not that i am gossiping about HER
but even colleen , lydia and rahayu also share the same thinking
i am sorry guys,
i am really sorry but it seems that i am beginning to dislike HER as soon as i start liking HER as my friend
really sorry ...